2nd June

Hello JUNE! can't believe that June is finally here... january just seemed like yesterday! LOL JK anuary was like 5 months agoo! can't believe that I'm in SAB for 5 months. i have trouble believing stuffs! ahaha. no seriously i can't believe that june's here.

1st week of holidays has officially ended. :'( not happy seriously, not happy. but think positive, there's still one more week of holidays right? but i don't think i'm gonna enjoy much this week. :\ cambridge exams are on this wednesday and thursday... haha and honestly i don't think i have a shot of passing this exam. even though the enrollment fees of the exams is freaking expensive.

kay, gotta go! off to study for la exams. in case i got busted for blogging instead of studying.

wish me luckk xoxo

四星联欢会 :)

First of June. I started this month awesomely and yes I'll end it awesomely as well. Just last month camp had already ended. Last month started awesomely and it ended awesomely as well.

四星联欢会, one  word babeh! AWESOME SIAL! :D But there's some not nice parts like the food -.- I hated the noodles cos the noodles no taste at all -_- And the meatballs -.- You call that meatballs? I taste flour and nothing else! Erm the overall performances, kinda modern and I really like it! The atmosphere in it is kinda high and yes i love it! All the songs and I like the keyboard and violin part the most! And the sketch by SMK St. John was really awesomeee :D

I met my primary senior there. Turns out MBS is one of the "stars" among the four ones. :D He's a bit older now, since I've never saw him since like the past 3 years? Haha, and yes he's taller! D: but still I'm not taller than him

Ouh yeah! My cousin was there too :D He's not one of the admins there this time. SO i can't ask him about the performances and stuffs -_- But yeah I like his 九校 too! But I can't judge which is better cos I went back early for 九校 cos there's IU day at SAB :D so next year, I'm definitely coming and definitely gonna sit front row!

Hey June. Be nice please :x

13 for a change :)

22052012 - 13 for a Change :)

  My birthday cake <3 Okay, isn't the big one but this is better than nothing right? :)

 13 for a change ;)

Haha, I'm already 13 for like 8 days :D This year I don't really have much presents but I got a lot of wishes. Wishes from Twitter, Direct Messages, Facebook (mostly are from Facebook), Viber, Whatsapp, and wishes from England :D I'm already 13 and I don't have much hopes. Presents I got this year is a book called Chicken Soup for the Soul, and I'm not sure how to read it. And i got food present from dearest Meng Sim :D 

13 for a change, adolescence here I come <3 

25052012 - IU day prep

 Mind the low qualities of the images, these were from Gyenice's BB :) She whatsapped it to me soo.. Maybe the quality dropped or whatever -___-

That's us. One big Happy family <3

26052012 - IU DAY AND 9 SCHOOL :D

My very first IU day here at SAB and my very first 9 school activity :) I'm not an Interacter but I came for IU day :D I love it! The theme is the best theme :D Pic 1 is the tickets and the second pic is with my all time favourite senior :) 3rd pic is one of the badges they gave away during IU DAY :D and the last one was the tickets :D I still have them LOL :D

Best month ever! xoxo

Lesson Learned

Lesson learned today. Never believe someone. Never show out all your cards to some stranger. Never, what I said, NEVER.

I had to stay back today because SIS needa attend Chinese classes. And I stayed back with Gyenice and Yun Yi. (they're really awesome!) :)We chatted like for 2+- hours and the chat made me changed my thoughts on a certain somebody. Tearing lies, crying tears out, we didn't knew that all these time, we have been forcing laughters and faking smiles. Behind the smiles and laughters that I show on my face, hides a story that you'll never know. :)

Gyenice talked about how pissed she is not becoming Head Girl ( i think that's what you people call it) during primary and I understand how she feels (: Knowing that one day you'll be head girl since you're standard 2 and not becoming it cos some teacher chose some girl who was an exchanged student, i know how you feel :')

Yun Yi; for being there for us. For listening to our stories, behind the smiles hide a story that you'll never know :) I'm really glad that you stayed back today :D Haha and sorry for being too over emo -.- I tried my best to control but I've been holding in too long. :) For listening to our stories that others will not listen to, for telling secrets, and for changing me today. I love you ;)

Gyenice; be strong girl! These kind of stuffs happens a lot :) And I know that you'll wanna become president for Interact Club and don't worry, I'm prettay sure that you'll get it. :) No one will be there to stop you! Be strong be strong be strong be strong! Cos in life, you'll bitches like that and please, the last thing I wanna see is you being pissed at something which is totally not worth it <3 I know how you miss your primary friends but remember, I'm always here for you :')

I never thought you were those kind of persons. Lying. Back-stabbing. I see you smile and laugh but I never knew you were like this.

So now you know, behind the laughters and smiles that I forced and faked, lies a story that you'll never know. :)

我忍。我不骂。我不展现出。我只是对你笑，可是心里，你不知道我已经对你做了几多不良东西。友谊万岁吧。

Updates

Haha, sorry for not updating my blog after such a long time. Was busy so... Hope that that's reasonable. :) A lot of stuffs happened recently and now this is gonna be a long and wordy post so please sit back and relax.

Last Tuesday, participated in school's 2012 form 1 choral speaking competition. LOL! Honestly I wanted to skip so badly~ Can go back and sleep. But I'm the conductor so I'm like the source of their moral spirit whatever shit you call that. :D

Having PBC camp soon! :D Saw the activities we're gonna play and HOMG it seems sooo nice~ :D And SAB IU day is coming soon too~ Feel like going but that's on a Saturday. ._. Have tuition at 3~ IU till 3:30. See whether can go anot~

Instagram turned out to be lotsa fun :D LOL. People following me and some of them I don't even know them~ :D But of course I private my photos so that only certain people can see~ And I don't approve a lot of requests. :D Turned out lotsa of them are Directioners. :D GO 1D :D

Okay, obviously I am in love with 1D. They are just so awesome and handsome~ :D LOL it rhymes. -.- Tomorrow two period of KH. One period LI. Owh great, just watch me die of boredom LOL.

Measured my height and weight that day at school. 146cm and 35.8kg. D: So short! *shorty* dream height for this year, 150cm. Sprout 4 more cm and I'll be damned happy. :D

Probably won't be updating any pics on Instagram next week cos exam's around the corner. :) Wish me luck peeps :D

Please STFU. I know you're tall. No need to tell. I know my hair is puffy just stfu. I tau u senior but please, sometimes respect others tho you're older. PLEASE STFU and explode.

:)

Seni Folio percentage is done : 50 %

Almost finished with my seni folio. Gonna sleep soon but I suppose a short post won't kill right? :\ black friday today! Friday the 13th... ._. had asuhan rohani today~ Drew eggs for Easter celebration and stuffs and I just colored my egg red and just drew a smiley face there :3

Black Friday. :] I don't pray extra more on these days but still, a little bit of praying won't kill you right?

Had PBC camp meeting today. Haha, I think that my group is kinda fun and it's very erm funny? Hahaha i know all my members, knew them from school! Two of them summore is last time combine camp same group before WOOHOO #TeamMulan

PBC camp briefing/meeting was fun actually~ Seeing all Chinese gathering and the games sounds fun :) see the itinerary, LOL needa bring lotsa lotsa shirt D: argh heavy bag ._. Lotsa funny stuffs happened today during camp briefing. Haha form 4 seniors damn funny (Y)

And. I. Discovered. A. Ben 10. Watch. o.O o.O owned by Jiunn Ming o.O o.O ben 10 hahaha o.O damn yeng lorh~ To start the stopwatch smack the screen then will count like o.O where do you see this kind of watches o.O o.O

我可以问你一件事情吗？

你可不可以不要一直针对我？

对不起，我没有那么完美，

我只是控制不了自己，

一直按电话。

*FlipsHair*

Hahahaha I am having short hair right now! Yeah! :D My hair wasn't long either before but it's shorter now so haha yeah I am kinda happy :D

I don't like it when some strangers cut my hair. Or even help me tie it. I just don't like it. It's sorta normal to go back to your usual saloon and ask them to do your hair. Sometimes you don't even need to tell them, they'll know straight away.

I didn't rebond my hair this time because some part of it is still straight, only the roots is curly. -_- I no like curly hair :( I was born with it. But still I hate it :P Some teachers thought I went and perm it or whatever shit. -.- Like hallo? Why do I needa perm my hair? It's not like school allows right? -__- even if they allow, no way am I gonna perm it. :P

I have like short hair :3 I like it :D no needa wake up and tie my hair, no needa wake up earlier and find rubberbands and hairband or whatever. -_- and summore SAB needa tie white ribbon. LIKE I CARE :P

Save hair shampoo (Y) Save money (Y) Save time (Y) but my hair! Grah its growing curly!! -_- i want to straighten it -__- mom said needa wait till june or august -.- fine i wait, as long as i dun kena laugh by people then okay already ;)

Missing

4 months

Gone

I'm trying to think what have I done in the past four months.

Six years,

just to be in a SPT school.

I don't know whether is this shit worth it or not.

As I can see,
All my primary friends are getting more and more engrossed on their secondary life.
And me?
Not at all.
And what can I be engrossed with?
Kawad? What's over, its over.
Study? No, I am not a bookworm.
Swimming? No, I am not that good either.
Orchestra? No, SAB doesn't has an orchestra.

So basically, I am getting more and more lifeless,

Always wondering what to do with my life.

My future.

Haha.

My future.

Since year 4,

I already wanted to come into SAB.

I gave it all.

I gave it all.

And I did got into.

Honestly, I was a bit shocked

When my mom called and told me that I'm entering SAB.

Sylvia,
now in Kuen Cheng.
Despite the distance,
We still keep in touch.
You have no idea how much I miss you.
Haha.
Helping me taking care of the band while I was away.
You were there.
Always there.
And before performing,
We had a fight,
I just hope that it's forgotten and forgiven. ;)
You're engrossed with your life.
Life in a Chinese Secondary School.
Kuen Cheng Orchestra,
Not bad ;)
I know you miss me <3 I miss everyone else.

Denise,

haha, sorry for not writing back.

I'm just getting busier. ;)

Busy with life.

Busy with my upcoming piano exams.

I know its abit unfair for you ;)

But I'll reply you once I have the time ;) 

I promise.

Leann,
I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH <3
Thanks for accompanying me to Astro <3
Thankiu so much I will love you~
Haha seeing back the movie
Makes me laugh.
Finding myself dumb why did I let you go choose the shapes TT
Haha,
But at least I know you're dumb :P

I should get more engrossed with my life.

I think I should take back swimming -_-

Sunday mornings, Pool in Bandar Tun Razak,

LOL HERE I COME?

Hasn't it been a long time since I last went for classes.

LOL SINCE I WAS 8? 

-_- I had muscles back then.

LIKE MUSCLES T.T

and i was really fit... -_-

I'm getting unhealthy..
and short... -_-
So continue swimming zzz as long as it makes me healthier :D

I will love you till the day I die

I swear

I love primary and my friends <3

I miss them :)

I should skip one day school and go find them LOL ahhaa

Just a suggestion xD

Rentas Desa

 Ahaha, I know we look a like ;)

 Small eyes :\

 Le Me waiting for mom and Le Sis playing her phone

 I know I look retarded ._.

Laksamana, what is your profession? OH OH OH! My sis and I both are Laksamanas. I was previously in Syahbandar, then I changed to Laksamana cos of my sis :)

Can say that I ran the entire marathon with Chelsea. Turns out, she's a very very nice girl! We have lots of things in common! She's a gymnast and she represented our school that day! She's very nice~ LOL, didn't got a pic with her ._. fine....

Basically, I am in a good mood. I am lazy to type the entire process cos it basically just involves me chatting with Chelsea, and the conversation is kinda boring.

I give up hope on you. Since you're basically just useless. Why thankiu for noticing that I exist.

Striving as 1

Please take note that this post may content some inappropriate words, if you don't mind about it, please continue reading, don't say I didn't warn you. And those who read it and wants to scold me for saying such words, please don't, as I am just writing this post base on my feelings 

 

BSMM, WE STRIVE AS ONE!

我不要接受事实，
我真的不要。

How people have been posting at facebook,
How PBSM should have won,
I don't know what to react.
Should I accept the fact that we lost after 3 fucking months of practice,
Should I feel OK,
Should I be EMO,
Should I be the one who quits kawad after one loss,
Should I feel happy for kadet polis (even though I WILL NEVER FEEL HAPPY FOR THEM)
I really don't know.

3 months,
Passed by without me noticing it.
3 months,
I've sweated a lot.
3 months,
I've grew tanner a lot.
3 months,
made me feel the love of PBSM.

3 months,
30 people,
1 day,
1 squad,
1 family.

Friends from other unit uniforms also wished me luck.
Pandu, KRS, Pengakap.
I really thanked them a lot.
But the luck they wished me,
Didn't really helped a lot.
But still,
Thanks a lot.

Results were announced,
I saw KRS's jaw dropped.
I took like a few hours to register that Cadet Police won,
Not us.
Not. Us.
There was an awkward silence when Cadet Police's name was announced,
Like seriously awkward.
I heard KRS saying PBSM's name before Cadet's name was announced.
I really had a high hope that we will win.
But fuck no Cadet won.

I cried right on the spot.
Tears flooded my eyes.
I can tell that it was red.
So was my entire face.
My eyes were swollen,
I was so paiseh that I didn't go for tuition.
Like seriously paiseh.

My caring friends who asked me how was I,
Thanks a lot.
Even though some of you who asked were other unit uniforms,
Thanks for caring.
People who told me not to be emo,
As there are many chances for the four more years,
Thankiu sooo much <3

May the 2013 AJK's of PBSM lead us to kick asses.
And may they organize a heck of a combine camp again with Scouts and Rangers and Pandus next year.

How 15 minutes is more important than 3 months.
How 15 minutes can crush people's love for kawad.

I like needa learn how to be fucking strong,

As I am not as strong enough,

Physically, Mentally and Emotionally.

Strong, I shall learn how to. 

I saw rangers kawad today,

I realized how much I missed the sun and the multipurpose court.

I realized how much I missed 1A.

I suddenly cried when I saw a bunch of Malays siting on the corridor,

(I thought they were gonna kawad but I dunno cos I wasn't there to see)

I cried.

Like as in tears dripping.

I pray for them,

So that they can win. <3

May the odds forever be in your favor :P

It's better to expect lesser things than to like be disappointed. Kawad competition tomorrow. I am really blessed to be able to be one of the squad members at only the age of 13. When other there aren't any form 1's in the squad. ._. okay saya pendatang haram :P

Tomorrow is the competition, all I really wish is that we will win. In all things, it is better to hope than to despair. :) All the tears and sweats we have dripped/teared in that multi-purpose court, I think it'll be worth it. For the better.

Cheers to PBSM. May God be around us when we kawad :)

The school's new pillar <3 

 When everyone gathers in the school with their new secondary uniforms <3

Denise and Sylvia; at computer lab~ See the flat screens <3 You jelly?

Last together pic

 My primary best friends <33

 Sylvia; the awesome anime crazy friend :D

 My best guy friends <3 we used to play UNO together remember?

 Second shot. LOL JOJO smiles like a perv :D

 Haha, you're gonna see this two girls on TV :D #teammates <3

First shot <3 POU YEE BEHIND KACAU COS SHE CANNOT BE IN THE PIC WF ME 

 Second shot. She was suppose to jump but she landed first LOL

 NAH~ Happy ke tak sekarang?

Last pic

26.2.2012~ A day to remember forever

People went back to school. Though it wasn't complete, I can still feel that bond between us. Sitting in the small hall, makes me think of  UPSR day :) We were all filled with nervous fillings and all of us just waited there and waited for it all to happen :)

In a blink of an eye, the most crucial days in my life just when POP! They were  also meant to remembered forever <3 I missed all the times we had in the small hall. BACK IN 2006~ :D Standard 1 kiddos filling it now, that was us. That was us filling the small hall with joy! Now its time for a new generation to fill it <3

Last day of graduation; the day that I shed most tears in school compound <3 Last time performing on stage :) Treasures it. See back how past years seniors graduate, it makes me cry that now I am one of the past year seniors

Went to school damn early! Told mama that I wanna be early cos I missed school compound~ No one other than the 2011 standard 6 students came back >< Juniors have been asking me how's secondary life. :) Its awesome <3 But primary one's are betterr :)

Teacher organized the places. Nothing has changed, nothing. The discipline teacher, still fierce :D but she understands us <3 SHE WAS MY MATH TEACHER :3 I miss her teaching me maths.

I donated rm 100 back to school. To thank them for everything they had helped me with. Academic and talent. I've found them on that very stage. :) I received many prizes from this school and I believe that rm 100 is not enough to repay them. I would like to help them as much as I could but there are limits for everyone <3 

That very stage, is the stage I've been up on on every single events there is. Whether I am the main actress or just a side one, it doesn't matter anymore. Because looking back, I smile and sometimes tear whenever I think of it <3 How performing on that very stage made me found my talent. A talent that took me almost 10 years to find. And this very school was the one that helped me to make it better <3 this was the school that helped me to SAB. Academic nor talent. They have the right teachers and the right technique to make you shine!

Journey as a SABian starts now <3 Wish me best of luck.

hello March ;)

Its been three months since I was in SAB :B my secondary friends are going back to their primary tomorrow. Lucky them :) I went back to mine last week :D Shall blog in next post :)

Today I just finished my first exam interevensi 1 in SAB :) I dun have any special feelings. I'm just having a hard time to get used to all the BM. Just don't frigging understand why they wanna change the syllabus to BM. My Maths and Science paper are all in bi-lingual. Which is really stupid. Cos you just waste more papers -.- LIKE I GIVE A DAMN ABOUT BM

Geography and Sejarah was actually sorta simple. But still I have no wishes on getting A :) Its in BM though -.- Sejarah was really simple. Though some questions made me think abit but overall it was OK. Geography was sorta simple too <3 Maybe because my nota I did it very detailed? :D i just hope the future syllabus are easy

BM, BC, MORAL, ENGLISH, I am so gonna fail you -_- I studied BM. Its just that lotsa words in the tatabahasa, I didn't even knew they existed. -_- I know I'm not gonna get an A. :P Gah, and the English. Rearrange the sentences. -.- I hate that part. 1 Question can form different type of sentences, and each sentences have different meaning -.- -.- I GIVE U ZA DAO U KNOW?

LOL I checked my calendar next to my computer, looks like I've got a very packed schedule :)

• 5.3.2012- English Oral Presentation. And I haven't prepared anything yet -.-
• 9.3.2012~11.3.2012- School Combine Camp. My first camp <3 
• 21.3.2012-Kawad Competition :D

 OH! Speaking about Kawad, its really interesting!!! :D i'm really glad that i actually signed up for this kawad thingy :) there's someone who got pissed cos' she's isn't in the squad. Not gonna comment anything about that :) But i'm really hungry now -.-

Till next time ;)

Forever Strong

Strong as in mentally strong. Never physically strong. PLEASE, even though I sound like I wanna grow muscles, but do you think a lazy bump like me would actually move my arse and go for a swim? HELL no. :) But I've decided to go for a swim one day. It's been a long time ago since I went to a pool. Probably for months? I dunno -.-

Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets is awesome peeple. -_- Okay, I was sorta late SO WHAT? I really enjoyed this book and I won't mind reading it again (but highest possibilities that I won't be, because I am so eager to finish the entire series!). :D Currently reading Prisoner of Azkaban and mother of God, it's wonderful! :) I love it (even though I just stopped at chapter 2)

Started reading it today. :) Managed to rushed it to chapter 2 in the car. My friend's reading New Moon currently -.- and that book is like damn thick -.- I feel pathetic with Prisoner of Azkaban. :D But still, its way nicer than NEW MOON! Fuq yeah :)

Minus all the critics I had received today, I had a quite pleasant day today. :) I feel like mentioning about my critics but that would seem sorta unfair, even though its not such a huge critic, I still felt bad lah :) IT'S MY HEART WEIH, NOT YOUR HEART. :)

I don't give a damn to whatever critics you say,
But please,
Stop comparing.
That comparing thing you do,
It breaks and shatters me.
I don't give a damn seriously,
I really don't,
Just stop comparing,
Is it too hard for your heart?

-.- Get your facts right before you give someone a task. -.-
 PLEASE!

I'm not gonna complain much.Wait till I get more critics and more things to complain then I complain. xD

= = currently being catly tortured by my friends. please save me TT

HIE :D

Some thoughts, said by some people,
Should be kept inside their mind.
And not letting it out of their mouth :D

Woke up early in the morning. O.O my definition of early, 10 AM :D that's early for me. For a girl who slept quite late last night. UGH. WHEE! Somehow my tweets broke to 572 :D Heehee, non-stop interact with cousins and friends :D

When to JB for some shopping and I'm sorta happy cos I bought lotsa revision books. At least the revision books shall be able to join me during exam weeks. :( and definitely, this blog shall be dumped until 3.3.2012 :)

Just got back from my bath. WOW, much refreshing. :) I have no idea why people wanna shower so many times a day. OKAY, unless you're sweaty or whatever but I don't find it necessary to shower 4-5 times a day -.-

YEAH, I'm sorta lazy.. to shower. :D

Have been jotting down notes all 2 months long. And surprisingly I had just finished the one that my friend gave it to me. So now continuing the second one :) THAT'S DAMN CUTE <3 You have no idea how cute it IS :D I bought it about when I was 10? :D I ALWAYS WANTED TO USE IT BUT IT'S TOO CUTE. :) It has a drawing/conteng section :D APPARENTLY I HAVEN'T STARTED TO CONTENG MY NEW NOTEBOOK *blushh

You should use the word Double-sided Tape to describe yourself.
I seriously beh tahan.
You called me just to ask for jadual.
After calling,
Hang Up.
Tells your friend why you hate me.
Do I look like I give a damn?
I could choose not to pick up that darn phone.
I was sleeping soundly.
Seriously, I question,
WHY THE HELL YOU HATE ME?
for that special someone :)